| Well....hello all...long time no blog entry...anyways, nothing new here just dealing with the card that God dealt me with.....
As some of you know, my mom has been battling cancer since 2000. She has done a superb job the last few years in dealing and coping with her cancer. First, it was in her breasts and now, it has gotten to other part of her body. Six months ago, she was diagnosed with a liver cancer. And, in the last three months, it has gotten worse, in fact, it has taken over her entire liver. The last few weeks has been the hardest part of my life, I never thought that i would be in the position that i am in at the moment. As of last week, her doctor has basically made my family aware of the severity of my mom's cancer. In other words, she is not doing well at all. Her doctor has tried the absolute to treat my mom, but somehow, the cancer just has not responded to the treatment, in other words, he has ran out of option. According to her doctor, he approximated that my mom has a week to 6 weeks to live. Geesh,,,when i heard about this, hhmm...how should i take this news? It is the hardest thing to cope with, when I look at my mother's eyes, her life is basically slipping away from my hands....i wish i could just say, here mom, i'll take it from here, its getting to heavy for you! but, life does not work that way...all you can do is pray, pray, hope, and pray more....i never lost faith in God regardless of my mom's current situation, i believe in higher power and that if He decides to take my mom, He will do so for a reason. Sometimes life is just not fair, why does my mom have to go through this? but i guess, everyone who have been a victim of cancer or a love one have probably been asking the same question. My mom is a very strong person, and i am so proud of her to have fought her cancer all these years. I still reminisc when she was strong and healthy, but now when i see her in the hospital bed, I realized that life is so short but yet so precious. There are things in life that we sometimes take for granted and when times like this comes around, moments you had with your mom, they seem so far away or so long ago. I love my mom wholeheartedly, from the day she brought me into this world. If she must go, i can only continue to live life fully and make her proud as can be knowing that she raised me the best way she knew how. And with that, I will always be thankful and credit her for the kind of person that i am today.
To all, please continue to pray for my mom, for me, my family and i hope i will have a happy news in the end!!! Good nite all!!! Have faith in yourself, love your mom, dad, families, friends to the fullest, live for the moment, and most of all, never lost faith in God. |
...raiders, once again, just fucked up my sunday and the rest of the week!!!!